Written on 11 December 2018
It was a long hike, and she wasn't usually one for exercise.
But she’d been told so often about what a beautiful spot it was. Her university friends spoke of it with an awed revelry, like the place had a spiritual energy.
So she’d hiked the 7 miles up the hill to lie on her back and feel something. That's all she wanted. To stare at an unspoilt night sky and feel something.
She thought she might have a profound realisation, that her path forward would present itself.
She thought she might meditate, become one with her surroundings, as if she was the grass, the stars, the trees and they would be her. She would become the embodiment of mother nature.
She thought she would, at the very least, be moved by the millions of unobscured stars, beautifully sprawled out across her field of vision. She wanted to feel tiny. Insignificant. She wanted her petty problems to be forgotten by the sheer enormity of the universe.
But she didn't feel any of this. As she lay there all she wanted was to go back to her box room and play videogames.